Wednesday, 26 October 2011

I don't quite know what I expected to happen when University ended for good. My hopes that I would find a perfect temp job in my local area for a few months, followed by another when that ended in order to save up for travelling have, ultimately, faded. I have, ashamedly, relied on falling back on family and friends to attempt to gain some sort of work experience in different fields, yet I'm still applying for permanent and temporary full time jobs left right and centre; I think it would be unfair to accuse me of not trying, or worst of all not applying, for things on my own. Because, (and this does appear to come as a shock to even my own parents, as well as, unfortunately, to my so-called 'supportive' boyfriend: so supportive in fact that I received a lecture down the phone this morning for spending time carving a pumpkin which I have to give in TOMORROW, rather than apply for things,) I have been. Practically every day I get off, I can guarantee that I've been sat at my desk for the best part of the day, applying. And therefore contrary to seemingly popular belief, I do not sit on my butt, watching Jeremy Kyle for hours on end. The only programme I will attest to have become obsessed with is Bargain Hunt, although I haven't seen it for a couple of weeks now, and to be honest I don't really see a problem with that, as it's on at lunch anyway. As Han would undoubtedly say: never mind.

In other news, it was Mum and Dad's birthdays on Monday and Tuesday; always a slightly hectic time of the year as I'm normally quite poor anyway, however this year was made slightly more bearable by going half and half with Guy, who came home for the weekend which was nice. You always know when Guy's been home by the trail of destruction he leaves behind, namely empty packets of biscuits/sweets that he's decided not to bother putting in the bin (why?!!), an empty fridge and an empty tank of petrol. Sigh! Was nice to see him nonetheless, and to know that he's getting on well at IBM.

Mum and I have become slightly obsessed with cookery shows. I've always been in to Masterchef, but I now find myself glued to Nigel Slater's Simple Cooking, Baking Made Easy by Lorraine Pascale, Celeb Masterchef and Come Dine With Me. I'm not quite sure where this obsession will lead, but I do think that it's probably a little strange that I like these shows so much. On verra.

Not much else to report, unfortunately! Hoping to see the Erasmus girls soon for a much needed reunion, so hopefully that'll come to fruition soon. Also looking to visit James in France and Adam up North: hopefully I'll start to earn some real money soon so that this will all be possible!

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

Another month, another blog; although I think there's fairly little to report! Sam and I came back from our holiday about a week ago now; we both had a lovely time in Bulgaria - weather was low 30's and the resort was really nice. All in all, a very relaxing, (and much needed!) break away from work, job-hunting stress and life in general. We're currently looking to go away for a long weekend if not before then just after Christmas. Sam's family have a cottage down in Cornwall which is looking like a possibility, if not then I think we'll try looking in mainland Europe for a Friday-Monday getaway. Watch this space!

In other news, the job hunt is going horrendously worse than even I could have imagined! Still unsure as to what I actually want to do, I'm receiving countless e-mails every day from Internet sites I've signed up to. I'm signing up with another agency (this time in Tunbridge Wells) in the hope that they'll be better than the last one (!), and I'm using my day off today to apply for some other things. I'm going to go for a few French-speaking and/or office roles around the Kent/West Sussex area, and I've been seriously considering applying for a few graduate schemes up in London, particularly in HR. Work is awful at the moment; we've got a triathlon event coming up this weekend for which I'll be working 6am-4pm both days, but then I'm hoping things will start to calm down a bit after that. The kids have all gone back to school now so weekdays should be boring and long, although being sent home early does have its advantages; i.e. more time spent on the job search! One of the girls (who's worked there for 10 years; only a few more than me!!) is leaving in a couple of weeks time for a job in Oxted; when she goes I'll be the longest-working employee in my restaurant, hence the sudden panic to leave and find a real job. Hopefully something will come up soon; although after a few months of saying that now I can definitely say that hope is fading fast!

Will blog again soon, hopefully with some good news (!) but for now; back to the job hunt!

Monday, 15 August 2011

Since I've moved home, I've been thinking a lot about friendship. Until around year 10, I didn't really have many friends. That wasn't because I didn't want them. I was genuinely too shy to speak to anyone. As a result, I often sat alone on lunch breaks in primary school, and I distinctly remember crying every day when Mum dropped me off at secondary school, because I didn't want to go in. Of course, I wasn't a complete loner. I had a best friend called Hannah until the age of around 7, when her family moved to Australia. Then came Emma, who I hung around with until the end of primary school. And then secondary school came, along with a new supposed best friend. But she was manipulative, and it took me a few years to realise that she wasn't really a friend at all. Towards the end of my secondary school life, I began to stand up for myself and made a really good group of friends. I still see them today, and although we've grown up, and slightly grown apart since I started Uni, I still consider them as some of the most important people in my life. I'm hoping that time will make us as close as we once were.

My best friend Daisy has played a pretty major role in my life. She knows me inside-out and can, much to my surprise the majority of the time, read me like a book. Dais is the kindest and bubbliest person I've ever met, and I consider myself lucky to class her as the closest person to me, outside of my family.

My University friendships differ to my home ones. In some ways I feel closer to my Uni friends; I've lived with most of them, and spending so much time with people obviously brings you closer together. I have, like every other University student, had my ups-and-downs with friends. The past year in particular was what led me, in a way, to start thinking about my friendships, and how I am as a friend. I've found being a good friend particularly challenging this past year. I worked really hard for my finals, and I'm very aware that I've neglected some of my friends because of this. In another sense, I've found the past year as a friend challenging as well because I've felt at times that I've had to step away from certain situations. But today I stand by the fact that friendship means supporting the people you love, regardless of your opinion, or your views.

At the age of 22, I finally feel ready to class my parents as my friends. I know how cliché that sounds. Most of my friends are more than ready to move out, and away from their parents. But I can still honestly say that my parents are two of the most important people in my life. Guy and I have both traditionally been 'Mummy's boy' and 'Mummy's girl', yet in more recent months I'm really happy that Dad and I have become closer again. I phoned them up first to tell them of my 2:1, and I was genuinely happy that they were proud of me. I'm very aware that Guy and I can argue with the best of them, and I'm sure we've both said things to each other before that we regret. But this is the closest we've ever been, and I care about him more than I do most other people. My little brother is, despite our differences, one of the closest people to me.


My friendships with boys have also changed. I'd gone out with my boyfriend, Sam, for almost 10 months before my year abroad, and when I came back we started going out again. We've been together for over a year this time round. There had been one other boyfriend inbetween those two times. I've spent a lot of time thinking about that stretch of my life, but today I can honestly say that I'm the happiest I've ever been, and that Sam makes me happier than I ever could have imagined. Whilst I make no claims that he's some sort of Romeo figure, he makes me laugh, and at times I think he knows me, though I hate to say it, better than I know myself.

So as I prepare for the world of work, I look back on the friendships I've made, and the journey I've taken so far. And, actually, despite my somewhat rocky start, I find myself thinking that I wouldn't change my journey for the world. Here's hoping the next chapter in my life is as enjoyable as the previous, and that as time goes by, in the words of the Beatles, I'll get by with a little help from my friends.

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Thought it about time to give a couple of life updates!

A lot's been going on since I last blogged. I graduated on Wednesday 6th July at 2:30 pm from Reading University, with a 2:1 classification in BA French. Graduation was fun, and it was really nice to see everyone I'd spent the previous four years studying with, all celebrate together. Below is a picture of Mum, Dad and I, and another of my fellow language graduates!

Post-ceremony!

In other news, I had a car accident on Tuesday on my way to work. I was on my own, but I'm fine, and the car's not that great; we're still waiting for it to be picked up and to receive a courtesy car. It was probably the worst day of my life, and I'm not in any hurry to get back behind the wheel. I don't think I'd ever truly realised before how genuinely dangerous driving a car can be. Sam was on the phone straight away though, and he came to make sure I was ok that evening and bought me flowers (for the first time ever!!) which was really nice. It's our 1 year anniversary tomorrow (although neither of us are sure of the exact date, so we picked the middle of the month,) and he's coming round and I'm going to cook, although God knows what, especially as I have work until around 18:30!

I've got a job interview booked on Monday afternoon; it's based in Horley and for the job of a Recruitment Office Administrator. It sounds ok, and one of their guys got back to me about 5 minutes after I sent my application. Office work is the kind of thing I'm looking for at the moment, although I think long-term I want to go maybe into HR, if not translation. There is a distinct lack of translation jobs around where I live, so I don't really have much choice at the moment anyway, especially without any experience in an office- or corporate-based role. Will let you know how it goes!

I wrote an entry soon after I came home (following my 2:1 announcement) about friendship. I'm still in two minds whether to publish it or not; I'm sure no-one will really find it that interesting anyway, but I found myself thinking a lot about the friendships I have when I got back to Edenbridge. Maybe I'll edit it and post it in the not too distant future.

Dais and I are going to see the Script in Brighton on Sunday night which I'm really excited about!! My Aunt got us tickets for my birthday (yes, in March!) so I've been waiting to go for a while. We're getting the train there and back, so I'll definitely update this after my interview, either on Monday or Tuesday.

Hope everyone's well, check in again soon!! (",)

Friday, 17 June 2011

I GOT A 2:1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For anyone that doesn't know, that's pretty much the second best degree you can get. So happy!! Found out on Wednesday and went straight to the pub (no surprises there!), and then went on a big night out to Q with James, Adam, JLo and Han last night which was really fun; there are loads of mental pictures on Facebook lol, see below. Han, JLo and James all found out their results today and they all got 2:1's too so I think they're all pleased with that =)!

The 2:1 Crew!! 


In other news, not much to say!! It's Summer Ball tomorrow night and I'm really looking forward to wearing my dress; I've been looking at it hanging up in my wardrobe for ages now! Definitely planning on staying until 6am and the Survivor's Photo, literally can't wait!! As for this evening, Han and I bought celebratory chocolate earlier so we're gonna be watching TV and chillaxing after last night I think! Will blog again soon! =) X

Monday, 13 June 2011

Can't believe it's almost been a month since I last blogged; what is wrong with me!!

Although, if I'm honest, I don't feel like I've got too much to say. After finishing all of my exams, I went out two nights in a row; pretty hardcore, if I do say so myself. Definitely won't be doing that again anytime soon! Han and I went to Oxford for an afternoon and we (somehow!) managed to get me a Summer Ball dress, which was a relief as I'd predicted spending hours trailing around shops! I also went to Bristol for a couple of days to finally visit Nathan; having promised to go visit for about three years now...!! Below is a picture of us at the suspension bridge; I look horrific having been dragged around half of Bristol all day, but I did have a really good time, and it was so nice to see Nathan!


I came home about a week ago to sort things out for Mum and Dad's 25th wedding anniversary party on Saturday; a weeks worth of rushing about all for one evening!! I've been pretty busy all week but the party was a success and Mum and Dad seemed to enjoy it which was all that matters!! Some of Dad's Uni friends came down for the evening and stayed in various hotels in Edenbridge, and in doing so fully booked out two of them! It was nice to meet them all; plus they all came round the morning after for coffee and muffins (more cooking!!) and for a chat. I dragged Sam along on Saturday night to help and he met all of my aunts and various family members, as well as various age-old family friends, so it was nice for him to meet everyone and get involved, I even (somehow!) managed to get him to dance which was definitely a turn up for the books! But I ended up having fun in the end, after all of the cleaning up after the meal, and the live band were really good, so all in all, pretty good night! Unfortunately, the past week has resulted in a backlog of calls and texts I need to catch up on; but they can wait until tomorrow!

Planning on going back to Reading on Wednesday; I get my results that afternoon =S bad times! Definitely don't think I'm going to get the 2:1 I want, but I've had a really good experience at Uni living away from home and spending a year in France as well, so I'm not going to regret anything despite my (expected-to-be) rubbish result! Going out to Q on Thursday night which should be fun, and Summer Ball's on Saturday night/Sunday morning (til 6am!), and then I'll probably come home on Monday, by which time I expect to be sufficiently broke and hopefully have an interview with Mum's work in East Grinstead. We shall see!

Just had Dais around for dinner which was nice, but going to attempt to sort out my room a bit before I go to sleep now. I expect I'll blog again when I'm back in Reading and I've picked up the dreaded finals result!

Until then,
Biz! Jess xx

Thursday, 19 May 2011

Pretty sure I managed to fail yet another exam earlier today, which feels fantastic. Never seen so many stupid French words in my life. 3rd, here I come.

However, today Hannah and I realised that I have muscles on my arms. Pretty impressive, if I do say so myself. Not so impressive: Hannah suggesting that I'm going to be the next World's Strongest Man. Yes, she did say MAN. Her following suggestion that I should carry her up the stairs to graduation did not go down very well either, surprisingly!

2 more exams to goooooooo, and although I already feel doomed to failure (and to a 2:2 =(! ) I'm going to try and revise really hard for these next two because they're my hardest. I have taken to praying (I've done it twice. That counts) in the hope that God will feel bad for me and make the exams easier (or at least do-able.) Unfortunately, this does not appear to be working, as today's performance has shown. 

Tired now! Will blog over the weekend, if I can still manage to find the will to live through the next 8 days of torture. Night, world!

X

Monday, 16 May 2011

Sudden urge to go skiing.

Will put it on the things-to-do-after-Uni list.

                                           Me skiing. Well.

Friday, 13 May 2011

Following one of my module exams yesterday, I, for some reason, thought it would be a good idea to get drunk. To be honest, I didn't even really think. It pretty much just happened. Two words, my friends: BAD IDEA. Felt rough this morning but somehow managed to drag myself down to Co-Op, and for some insane reason went to the library in the afternoon, in an attempt to be productive in my confused, tired, hungover state. Needless to say, I will not be drinking again until ALL of my exams are finished, however awful they go.

It's Suzie's birthday today and some of us are going to have lunch in town tomorrow to celebrate which will be nice; it would, of course, be even nicer if I could go out out with everyone in the evening. Unfortunately, the life of a fourth-year student in the middle of her finals exams is extremely restricted, and it is for this reason that I'll be sitting in my room tomorrow night, completely sober, watching Doctor Who, before going to sleep and waking up on Sunday sans hangover, ready to revise. I love my life.

Not a lot going on, in other news! Exams so far have been OK; not been happy about how a couple of them have gone, (hence last night lol,) but I've (somehow!) managed to do really well in my essays, so I'm pretty confident that they'll pull me up a bit. Really hoping that I come out of this with a 2:1; if not, I shall not be attending Graduation lol =P

I have been spending an inordinate amount of time on the 5th floor of Reading University's Library, much to my annoyance. However, James, Adam, Han and the occasional appearance of others seem to make it considerably better, through frapes, twapes, hiding everything James owns, and Adam's drawings. This being said, I am awaiting the day when I no longer have to drag myself out of bed at 7 o'clock in the morning for a bleek and boring day of revision. Nonetheless, two weeks today I shall be free from all-things-Uni, so it's not much longer now!

Right, that's probably enough rubbish to keep you all in the loop for the moment! Will write again soon,
Bisous! Jess xx

Thursday, 14 April 2011

Random Rambling.

When people say someone has a 'selective memory', it's usually meant to be taken as some sort of insult, or, at best, a dig. I, on the other hand, am of the firm opinion that I have a selective memory. Yet I don't mean to insult myself in saying that. I hardly remember anything. Or, if I do, it's something completely useless, of no importance whatsoever. How it is possible, for example, for me to remember the entire lyrics of a song after having listened to it a maximum of four or so times, yet to not remember whether or not I went to Sam's Dad's 50th birthday party, without a prompt? How can I manage to recall Dad coming home drunk, having broken a DJ's set one night, but forget whereabouts in France I've been? (And I've been to France a lot. But I couldn't tell you, right here and now, the names of half of the places I've been there.) And why do I have the most absurd ability of remembering Eastenders's story-lines, and yet not be able to remember the most basic principles of European integration?

This has gone to such an extent that I have, embarrassingly, had to re-learn how to use the apostrophe. I don't quite know how I forgot, to be honest. At Secondary School, I was one of those annoying people who complained when other people didn't use it correctly. I even joined one of those stupid Facebook groups, complaining about it. But with time, it just went away. Until now. And now it all seems so obvious that I don't understand how I could forget such a crucial element of my own language in the first place. Things are going downhill. I blame age. And French. Mainly French.


Anyway, life! Unfortunately, not much to report. The most exciting my life gets was probably my dentist appointment on Tuesday. To make it worse, I was actually looking forward to it. Just as I looked forward to my opticians appointment today, and how I'm excited about getting a haircut tonight. This is not what I call life!

Revision is going as well as it can be; my bedroom walls have a million and one spider diagrams blue-tacked (is that a verb? To blue-tack?!) on to them. Not quite sure why I think that is going to help me revise. The words aren't, unfortunately, going to jump off the wall and into my brain. Somehow them being on the wall, though, fills me with some sort of sense of achievement. I don't quite know why.

Sam is good! I went round his Grandma's for dinner last night with him which was nice! He managed not to complain about work for about 5 minutes as well, which is a definite record =P



Right, that's probably enough rambling for one day. I'll write again as soon as I've done something worthwhile with my life. Either that, or after Sam and I have booked our holiday. So exciting!!

Bisous! Jess xx

Friday, 8 April 2011

Cahier d'un retour à la maison familiale (Cesaire reference right there - BOOM bring it on Cahier!!)

Body Butter is probably one of the greatest inventions on Earth. I smell of a, albeit very fake, coconut. And I don't even like coconuts. But I like Coconut Body Butter. Thank you, Body Shop.

Anyway, back to blog. I'm home! Edenbridge is pretty, very hot, and full of flowers. It's nice to be home, even though I have done nothing but revise since I've been back. Today I ventured outside to get some revision done, although to be honest I think I'd have got more done if I were inside. Whilst the internet cannot distract me outside, especially sans laptop, I am nevertheless continuously finding new distractions. Cue listening to a woodpecker for half an hour, sunbathing on the deckchair, and watching planes in the sky. Sigh!

Despite my continual distractions, both inside and out, I am somehow managing to get quite a lot of stuff done, surprisingly!! And it is for this reason that I think it is OK to see Sam every other evening, to go swimming with Daisy tonight, and go to Sam's BBQ all day tomorrow. I have yet to break my no-drinking-until-the-end-of-exams stint, although I can see it being broken tomorrow (after a whole 15 days and counting - I don't think I've ever not had a drink for so long in my life. Even as a child. lol) and on one other occasion in the next couple of weeks when I meet up with Nathan and Natalie when we go on our annual let's-go-to-the-pub-and-get-so-drunk-we-can't-walk,-or-at-least-if-we-can-walk-let's-walk-like-an-animal, evening. I do feel quite guilty about breaking my no-drinking though, I guess the test will be when Sam asks what I want to drink tomorrow and whether I cave in or not. We shall see!

In other news, not a lot to say! Sam and I are trying to book our holiday for September (seems so far away!) and if he gets it his way, (which is usually does!!) we'll more than likely be booking it through a family friend (his, as well as mine - what happens when you live in the same town lol) who'll hopefully be able to sort it all out for us - I think I'm more aware of the hidden costs of booking through an agent than he is, but he is, and I quote, "willing to pay the extra" so I plan to try to hold him to that! We're vaguely thinking Croatia/Gran Canaria/Icmeler, so I guess we'll see what she comes up with! Hopefully we'll have it booked before I go back to Uni for my exams (I've told him that I won't be going if we don't book it before Easter!), so that'll be something nice to work towards =)!

I went to Bath last weekend to meet up with some of the Erasmus girls which was really nice! I hadn't seen Fi since Lyon (reason no.1 why she should not live in Scotland!!) so it was really good to catch up with her, and then in the evening I met up with Daisy in London to go and see Wicked - which is definitely a must-see, it was amazing! I knew that everyone had been raving about it (hence why I'd wanted to go so much!!) and it was incredible; I keep meaning to download the soundtrack so I'll have to get round to that asap! We came back to Oxted together (after my mental day of travelling!!) where her dad picked us up and dropped me home - I came back as a surprise for Mum for Mother's Day (the Sunday), so crept in to the house, turned all the lights off and crept upstairs - only to see that Mum and Dad's bedroom door was open and that they hadn't got back from their play that they'd gone to see yet, so had to rush back downstairs, unlock the door, turn all of the lights on etc and wait - half an hour later they stumbled in (at half past midnight!!), and Dad stumbled in to the kitchen, pointed at the table (which had my flowers and card on for Mum), Mum said 'how did you do that?' and I popped up!! She was surprised which was nice, and a few moments later, having noticed Dad swaying around a bit, realized that he was drunk! Got a pretty funny video of him making not a lot of sense on my phone; very funny! Apparently he'd thought he'd take Mum to the pub after the play they'd gone to see, (in order to give me time to get home to surprise Mum), and in the process of the whole evening, had managed to drink half a bottle of red wine, five pints, and three jaegerbombs. Quite impressive for a man in his 50s, although I think he'll be the first to say that he won't be doing that again anytime soon!!

Think that's all for now! More revision awaits; can't believe I've just managed to waste time writing this! Until the next time!

Bisous!! Jess xx

Monday, 28 March 2011

Blog Update.

I, for some reason, thought now would be a good time to start writing my blog again. I'm not quite sure why. Gavin and J Lo have started up blogs again so I suppose I'm following the trend.


Having not blogged for almost a year, I'm feeling a bit rusty - please be gentle!


Where to start. Quite a few things have changed since the last post. I came back to England, I gained a boyfriend, I came back to Reading for my final year at University, and am currently living in Halls. It is the 28th March and I am precisely 38 days away from the start of my final exams. Scary.


Also - first blog as a 22 year old!! 


I don't really know why I am writing this. I'm feeling in a funny mood as well so it all seems to read quite strangely - not funny ha ha more like funny hmm. 


Blogger.com tells me that I have had 11 (?!) page views of my blog today alone - I'd quite like to know who these people are; I haven't said anything in about a year and so anything I have said seems like ancient history! But hello to anyone reading this anyway.


Right, time for bed, in the hope that tomorrow I'll be in a slightly better mood and that tomorrow will be a better day than today.


Night bloggersphere!

Bisous! Jess xx